<TITLE>13. Par 36-38</TITLE>L-36 Oh, how everything was gone. I stood upon the hill up there when the baby laying on the mother's arms... I heard the preacher say, "Ashes to ashes and dust to dust." They buried my heart. When I seen that young wife of twenty-two years old, been married a little over two years. Holding little old Billy on my arms, and him looking, "Mama, mama," reaching for her, and his little sister laying on the mother's arms... An old turtledove set in the bush a cooing. I heard the clods drop. We were poor, had to bury her almost in a potter's field. I heard the clods drop on there; the preacher said, "Ashes to ashes and dust to dust." It seemed like coming down through them pine trees, there was a breeze blowing, saying, "There's a land beyond the river, that they call the sweet forever, and we only reach that shore by faith's decree; one by one we gain the portals, there to dwell with the immortal. Someday they'll ring those golden bells for you and me."
About two weeks afterwards, I couldn't get over it. I went back to work. About a month or two, I was going up the road. I had my hands behind me, an old pair of boots on; I couldn't go home; I couldn't go nowhere. My heart was broke. And the state senator of Indiana, Mr. Isler, comes to my church. I was going walking up the road like that. I heard a little old truck coming. I looked around. He stopped. He jumped out, run over there, and he put his arms around me. And I was crying.
He said, "Billy, how are you feeling?"
I said, "Mr. Isler, you know how I'm feeling."
Said, "I want to ask you one thing solemnly, Billy."
I said, "All right. Ask me, Mr. Isler."
Said, "What do you think about the Lord Jesus now, after taking your baby, your wife, everything you had?"
I turned around, took him by the hand, looked him in the eye. I said, "Senator, I want to tell you something. He's more than life to me."
He said, "Do you love Him?"
I said, "With all my heart, with all my soul, and with all my strength."
"After taking your wife and baby?"
I said, "Though He would send me into hell, if there's such a thing, as I could love Him there, I'd love Him anyhow." He's right, and I'm wrong always. And He's always right. I love Him.

L-37 Oh, I'm so glad to know that by grace He put that in my heart. That powerful thing of love, it conquers. It'll... You can conquer your husband. If he won't go to church, and he fusses at you for going, just pray. Now, don't try to put it on. If you do, it won't work. But if you really get such a love in your heart for his soul, he will know it. Don't you worry. The husband is sanctified by the believing wife, vice versa. You can't fool it. You can't bluff it. It's got to really be there. That's the reason where genuine faith...
People sometimes think they got faith when they haven't got it. You've got to really have it. I've seen that same conquering power.

L-38 As you know, I'm a lover of outdoors, and love the wild, raised in the woods, my mother about a half Indian. And I love the wild. I was game warden in Indiana for years, studied wildlife, lived in it all my days. My old granddaddy was a noted national known hunter. And I've hunted all over the world nearly. I love wildlife. But I tell you; there's something about genuine. There's something about real that everybody will know. You won't have to go around testifying, this, that, or the other. If you're a real lover of the Lord, everybody you come in contact will almost know it. You are written epistles. You're sealed. And a seal is on the backside the same as on the front side, both going and coming. People know that you're a Christian. You walk different, live different, act different; you are different when you become a Christian.
I remember one time... I might've told you this, how that I have seen wildlife conquered by the love of God. How many ever read my book called, "Man Sent From God," was wrote here by Brother Lindsay? Many of you.


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